Do-Over.

If I could do it all over again, I would have nourished myself more. I wouldn't have worried so much about what others thought of me or if what I was doing would help me to fit in more. I would have paid attention to what makes me happy and continued to seek those things without letting dramas get in the way of my own needs. I would have stopped letting my persona drive the boat. I would have taken care of myself from the inside out without wondering who was watching or who I could impress. I would have stopped comparing myself to others a long time ago and let myself just....enjoy myself. I would have identified all those little things that made me smile and made them sacred and not disposable for anyone. I would have slowed down and not be so quick to get my next high by throwing my reality into chaos. I would have made more calculated moves and not just acted on my feeling states...which always proved to be unreliable. I would have loved my body enough to take the time to really care for it. I would have put more value into those things that took time to cultivate and learned what it felt like to move through a process that didn't always produce immediate rewards instead of just quiting when things didn't come easily. I would have made a pact with myself that quality is more important than quantity and to live strictly by those terms. I would have treated myself better instead of putting everyone else first. I would have made my spiritual relationship with the universe higher than any other relationship in my life. I would have let go of other's judgements about me and therefore let go of judging others. I would have stopped waiting for permission to have fun. I would have made sure my time alone was treasured time instead of dreaded time.

All in all, I would have made sure I practiced being happy and content every day to ensure I would arrive there in the future.