It's time...

....to dive a little deeper....

It's been almost 2 years since i last posted anything on my blog...in fact, it's been almost 2 years since i opened my blog to the public.

a lot happens in two years.

what has happened in your world the past two years?

even if your external world looks the same,

there must have been something that sent your internal world on a quest to find your Self... even more.
it's inevitable.

we are changing.

i needed these last two years to come closer to my Self.

and i feel i have made a success out of my journey...so far.

i am ready to share my own triumphs and revelations again.

it's time for me.....to dive a little deeper...

our lives are all different but i believe there is a common thread that connects us all.....

we are all striving towards a sense of happiness, contentment, peace.

and.... it's not "out there"....

it's a journey only to be discovered from within.

see for yourself...

so where are you in your spiritual undertow?

Or are you still waiting ashore?

no better time than NOW.....

time to take that leap....

back into the undertow....

So what is the spiritual undertow? its finding that current that resonates with who you are. this current is strong and may take you away faster than your prepared for. but once it finds you....once you find you....you will be swept away into your vast potential... dont be scared if you look back and find that have been separated from all others who gave you a name. dont be scared when, in a panic, you try to swim back to the place where your feet could touch the sand bar that you thought was the ocean floor. it was an illusion. you cant touch this floor. you just have to believe that it is there. you dont get to see what is waiting for you in your depths, it will come upon you just when you thought you knew......And as you bob up and down wondering when you will arrive?- you wont even notice that you are being carried by your own destiny currents....and every wave along the way is a ripple from that butterfly far far away...... and every storm comes from your own imagination- so you dont get too comfortable in your view..... dont try to touch the bottom.....you may find its not there..... dive under and open your eyes to see what will be your next obstacle....at your own risk.....is it better to know?.....or to wait?...find your comfort in the stars as they shine pin points of light in the darkest of waters. and remember that even the sun can hurt you if you find its rays comforting for too long. and how hard will you laugh when all this time you have been cursing the gods for not sending you rain to quench your thirst - and you realize you have been surrounded by abundant waters all along?.... its the ultimate balancing act. dont swim too hard. dont stop swimming. find the current to keep moving forward. how do you know when you're off course? this is the spiritual undertow. do you have courage to swim past those buoys to find your spiritual undertow? and now that you know its out there- can you stay ashore pretending that yours isnt waiting for you?

the tree in fall

i was the tree in fall

bright, vivid, beautiful.

i was the tree in fall

yielding to the adventure of the seasons' change.

i was the tree in fall

standing strong in my conviction to take the step others feared to take

i was the tree in fall

watching the others drop their leaves on at a time.

i wondered if it was their fear of shedding completely

or a savoring of what was and no longer wants to be.

i wanted my moment to be beautiful and dramatic....

proof that i was here and i was alive.

i was the tree in fall

yellow, shining as if i were the sun.

in a moment i chose my dance

my bright, vivid, beautiful leaves shimmering.

in a moment i let them all go.

i was the tree in fall

and i was beautiful in my moment of fall.

my yellow, shining leaves danced around me

as they all fell to a green yet chilled ground....

all falling to find their new place as my old life.

i stood as the tree in fall

with leaves bright, vivid, beautiful showering my view

as i stood on the edge of my seasons' change.

i was the tree in fall

beautiful falling leaves as the children danced in my bright vividness.

my yellow shining leaves were my glory

and my moment was glorious.

i was the tree in fall whose beauty for turning and letting go was noticed....

and then forgotten once my soul was bare and vulnerable.

my dance was over.

my moment decaying on the green yet chilled ground around me.

i was the tree in fall

who feared the unknown storms to come.

i was the tree in fall

who wondered when my beauty would return to my bare and vulnerable branches.

spring is on the horizon

my soul waking from its' dormant slumber.

how many winters have past since my beautiful dance among my yellow, shining leaves...

when i knew i was the sun?

i wonder if i am the tree in fall

whose buds will bloom in spring....

nature's trusted dance.

will i be bright, vivid, beautiful again....

yellow, shining, knowing...

i am the sun.