Mother Earth Day

"The planet is some kind of organized intelligence. It's very different from
us. It's had 5- or 6-billion years to create a slow moving mind that is
made of oceans, and rivers, and rainforests, and glaciers. It's becoming
aware of us, as we are becoming aware of it, strangely enough.

"Two less likely members of a relationship can hardly be imagined -- the
technological apes and the dreaming planet. And yet, because the life of
each depends on the other, [we have] a feeling towards this immense,
strange, wise, old, neutral, weird thing, and it is trying to figure out why
its dreams are so tormented and why everything is out of balance."
- Terence McKenna

Turning the Page...

i haven't written a post in a long while.  i keep pulling up my blog thinking i am ready to write something and then too much floods to the surface and i go blank.  strange how that happens.  and then i have begun to ponder if i should even keep this blog going...or perhaps start a new one?..a fresh lens to peer through...a new window to peer through....what do i see....

.....a beautiful castle.....a strange land.....uncertain surroundings.....dreamy backdrop....a traveling circus....animal-free zone.....sunny days....a go-cart.....seedling friendships.....a budding community.....a morphing identity.....a new role.....a crawling little being....a re-connected connection....

i wonder how i came to exist behind this glass.  how did it all change so fast?  so fast i had little time to react....there was little time to hold on....and now here i sit in a reality created by me...the artist.  every little piece i dreamed of in some past daydream and now i sit among it all.  it's not without its sacrifies.  sacrifies for a life where i can be more of who i am in my ever changing scenes.  sacrifices....  

....there are still moments in the day that haunt me.  my feet under the blanket searches for that warm purr.  i lay quietly in bed listening for their scurrying about.  no greeting at the top of the stairs.....that unconditional furry love.....

  "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." ~Ferris Bueller

i look at my life as it were a book....made up of a beginning, an ending, and chapters in between...characters....and an author of course.  the new chapter i have embarked upon is one that i hoped would come...one that i have been in anticipation to write.  and the chapter that ended is full of happy endings and gratitude for having been able to create such a beautiful tangent.  

a new page has turned...this one...a traveling circus....a beautiful castle in a strange land...morphing identity....more blank pages to create.  i think there is a good story waiting to be written.  stay tuned.  i will do my best to stop and look around once in a while to share as i peer out through this glass.