Shining

every few years, we can find ourselves in a bit of a haze. as we take note of the day and time, we realize that its time to catch up to ourselves. looking back over the past 10 years...as we wonder....where did it all go?....we peer in to each chapter ....and remember....those elements of our lives where we thrived.....the vivid colors.....the scents.....the routines.....the seasons.....the styles.....the surroundings.....the comforts......those long forgotten elements where we shined inside......

"Whatever is rejected from the self,

appears in the world as an event." ~ Carl Jung

"You are contradicting your vision

by focusing

on your current reality."

~Abraham

Wild Wild Trust

trust.

this abstract word has been lurking in many conversations that i have been having lately. apparently i am not the only one who finds this animal to be quite elusive when it always matters. i mean, what does it look like? how do i harness it? how do i even trust that i know when or how to be trusting?

in the movie The Secret, it gives a 3 step approach to creating your reality through the Law of Attraction. the one part of creating your reality that is crucial to the process and will ineveitably come up as your in your creation process is trust. and trust ain't no easy thang to be describin'. but i will give it a shot since i have been taking a good hard look at it myself.

the topics that trust has been coming up for me or the people around me lately has been around relationships and creating your reality. and its in relationships that trust almost seems to be the most elusive yet the most powerful. so when is it important? of course we need to trust our partners to be honest and to have our best intentions in mind. thats obvious. but what about trusting our partner's process?

have you ever had an argument with your partner and tried forcing them to see or change what you want them to see or change? have you ever gotten frustrated when it seemed like they just didnt get it? but then a week later your partner all of a sudden changes or says "hey, remember when you said yada yada yada last week...well, i've been thinkin'." there it is...the space where real transformation happened. the space where trust would have felt really good for both parties involved. i say, take some time to understand how your partner or friend or mother processes information...get to know what their space looks like and trust that they will not only move through that space but arrive with a revelation! and if you experience the flip side of that coin, then communicate to your partner or friend or mom the space in which you process and arrive to your revelations. ask them to trust that you will get there!

okay now on to creating your reality. we write our goals or desires, we affirm that they are coming to us, we imagine ourselves already there....and then as time goes on and we feel like nothing is happening......this is where its really easy to doubt your creative process. its in this space that trust comes in. oh this can be hard, especially if you are looking at your current situation as dire and the desire you NEED to manifest is not coming fast enough. this is the space where trust seems like a wild animal that is on the extinction list. it is in this space that the most crucial part of the creative process exists....it will either make it or break it.....or bring faster or slow it down.

so how do we trust in relationships or our own creative processes? well this is a good question. and after trying to describe it myself, i realize that trust really is abstract. there are no real words to actually describe what it feels like or how to envoke it. so now, after all of this, i just have to trust that you will begin to ponder the spaces within your own lives where a little more trust would make a difference. and perhaps start trusting yourselves a little more to enter those scary spaces with a more determined mind to start trusting this animal. trust me, exploring the jungles where trust resides will be worth it.

A Note from the Universe

"A master's awareness of spiritual laws, directs him or her to manifest major life changes by working with their thoughts, not by working harder.

Which isn't to say they don't sometimes work very long hours, because they do; they just don't think of it as work. Which also isn't to say that they all have cool jobs that anyone would love, because they don't; they just see every task before them, no matter where they work, as a gift to unwrap.

Hmmmmm...

The Universe"

"You have everything you need in the present situation to work with impeccability. That doesn't mean that you shouldn't work toward manifesting additional resources and opportunities. It does mean that the present situation supplies you with everything you need to take the next step."

- Jonathan Zap, "A Guide to the Perplexed Interdimensional Traveler"

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive
is too small for you.

~ David Whyte ~

Goal:

To be THIS "in the moment" with everything! Overflowing with total bliss....

Happy Henry. His first experience with snow.

"We outgrow goals, sometimes before we even accomplish them, so before you put one on the list, make sure you still are passionate about getting your desire.

Sometimes we have several things that we'd like to change on our list, but changing them all would be completely overwhelming. Avoid the bleed effect - where everything seems wrong. It's usually due to one area of life that's so painful that it's causing a domino effect into other areas." --Susan Miller

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Lessons Learned in 2007

Something I like to do for the New Year is to look back and see what I have learned....

1) Getting a Master's Degree is expensive, so choose wisely.

2) The Midwest winters are enough to make me cry.

3) Don't under estimate Bette the Astrologer.

4) Durango has the best bakery with the most generous creator EVER.....BREAD.

5) I am more athletically inclined than I gave myself credit for.

6) Little spirit babies have their own timing.

7) Boulder Colorado is a better place to visit.

8) Moving across the country is expensive.

9) Sometimes you can find yourself trying to catch up with yourself.

10) Commuting a long way to work to and through downtown Portland really does take its toll on your soul...if you dont use your time wisely.

11) Spirituality takes work.

12) Automatic self-cleaning litter boxes are just as finicky as cats.

13) The people of Puerto Rico are incredibly generous.

14) Portlanders are incredibly friendly.

15) I feel better overall at sea level.

16) I love the ocean....preferrably the warm tropical kind.

17) The rain does get to me.....the sun is a needed element.

18) Blogging nourishes my spirit.

19) The older I get, the more I need my family around.

20) A relationship isnt about being ready for it, its about being ready to sacrifice for it.

21) Acupuncture is medicine.

22) Committing to a wedding date and location is harder than I thought.

23) Bio-illuminescent bays are truly magical.

24) You really can fall in love at the airport.

25) Pregnancy is more physically challenging than I anticipated and more spiritual than I imagined.


So what is to come in the New Year??

My 30th birthday. A new addition to the family. Our first summer in Portland. Another trip (hopefully) to Puerto Rico. Evolution of our dream careers. Our baby's first Xmas. A wedding....

We'll see how much I learn after this coming year...from the looks of it, I think it will be a lot!

WISHING EVERYONE A WONDEROUS NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!! MAY ALL YOUR WILDEST DREAMS COME TRUE!

A New Way through the New Year

Why is it that New Year's Day feels so refreshing? We look back on the last year of our lives, and I think some of us out there feel surprised and relieved that we even made it to this point. And perhaps others look back and see little obstacles overcome, a few glitches here and there, sprinkled with a few changes and suprises. Either way, I think its safe to say that when we all look back, we can all see how much WE have changed. .....

So why do we feel the need to MAKE changes through resolutions or goals for the coming year? Haven't we changed enough? Can't we just give ourselves a break? Are we not convinced that this coming New Year will bring us enough abundant change as seasons and calendars re-cycle us once again?

Every year I write down my goals with a crisp vigour within my soul. And this year, it was all I could do to just THINK about my goals....much less write them down. I felt myself struggling with this:

"Why do I not want to get serious about all the changes that I want to come for me this year?"

Then it became clear to me. Its not that I dont want goals...especially New Year's goals (some of the best kind). And its not that I dont believe in the power of writing down my goals. Its this whole perspective thing that, I feel, drives many of our New Year's resolutions.....the perspective of needing things or ourselves to change MORE. What if we looked at our New Year's goals as our reward for changing so much over the past year... And a reward for showing up again this year? Instead of limiting our resolution/goal list to just things that we want to be better, why don't we include the things that are already great from enduring yet another cosmic year?

With my past year being 4 seasons full of change, I couldn't even stomach adding more to my plate with MORE goals to focus on. And I realized that perhaps my focus is to just to be more appreciative of how far I have come. Do we take enough time to do this? My own curiousity cannot help but write down a huge list of goals to see what I can achieve this year, but I have come to see the needed balance of self-appreciation for what we have already created.....NOW

Let New Year's Day be a day of basking in where you are NOW. The coming New Year will be sure to move you through plenty of life cycles to keep you growing. Thats life. The constant is change. And the change is constant.